My wife and daughter were watching the 1985 movie “Anne of Green Gables” the other night when a set of dialogue caught my attention. The adopted Anne faces one trial after another and has a knack for the melodramatic. After one traumatic event, the following was said…
It’s quite easy to sink into a pool of despair when fighting a chronic disease like RA. Constant fatigue that beats you down into the couch, joint pain that won’t go away, a never ending litany of new symptoms, side effects from drugs, secondary symptoms, doctor visits, a regimen of treatments, health insurance, missed work, misunderstanding by those around you, and the list goes on. But Marilla’s advice rings true. There’s always hope and the fact that God is there brings comfort and peace.
Right now would be a prime time for me to sink into despair. I face an extensive sinus surgery tomorrow and the recovery will not be pleasant. The chronic sinus infections were caused in part by being immunocompromised by RA drugs Orencia and Arava. During the decision making process, I learned about the procedure, recovery, and potential complications. I probably watched too many YouTube videos showing the surgery. But then I ran across some patient testimonial videos and everyone of them said how glad they had the surgery and what a difference it made in their quality of life. This gave hope with a dream of being symptom free in the sinuses.
The symptoms of RA compounded with the symptoms of chronic sinus infections have not been easy. It is easy to despair at times like this. But I don’t want to take the easy route because it doesn’t lead to anything productive. I can’t turn my back on hope and God.
The surgery is scheduled for tomorrow morning. Monthly Orencia infusions continued on schedule although I was instructed to stop Arava right before the surgery and into the first week of recovery in order to my immune system a better shot at fighting infection. I’ll provide regular updates during the recovery time.